Faith means leaving your eyes behind…

Faith And Hope

The Past Outrun

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This song reminds me that no matter what bad things I let into my heart, what sin I commit, who I used to be, or what my reputation is God’s mercies are new every morning and I can leave all of my crap behind me and embrace fresh, new hope every day. It’s something He’s been saying to me a lot this year and, today, I’ve never been more happy to hear it.

Peace be with you,
-naomii

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Future Decided

October 7th, 2010

I propelled myself out of my chair in the back isle of the sanctuary, my jaw grinding. Anger steeled my heart and quickened my pace as I turned into the dingy hallway and found an empty prayer room. Throwing myself into a chair I roughly pulled my bible and iTouch from the purse, ready to hash this whole thing out with God, ready to show him how unfair he had been to me.

“See God? Here I am seeking you. Give me a verse, I’ll look it up. Give me a word it save it in my iTouch. I can’t really get away from it if it’s in something I use all the time, can I? So tell me God…WHAT IS YOUR FREAKIN’ PROBLEM?”

I ranted and justified. I crossed and uncrossed my legs, my hands laced tightly together as I willed myself not to break anything. My throat longed to scream, a release from my pent-up frustration, but I knew that people would hear. The last thing I wanted was an overly curious church-goer, or someone from my youth group trying to counsel me about something that was none of their business.

So I stayed quiet, spitting out my anger, hurt, frustration, and worries to my God.

As my thoughts and words slowed I felt God’s presence. A few tears escaped me as I admitted that I just did not understand what God wanted from me. With that silent confession some of the anger left me and my heart softened, just a little.

I was done ranting and it was God’s turn to speak. I waited, silently, spirit and heart straining for his words.

Was God laughing?

There was no mistaking it. There he was, standing close, arms crossed, and love in his mirthful eyes. But there were no grave words of correction, or strong plans of action, there were only his silent chuckles.

I was thrown off. He had caught my attention. I sat in shock for a good ten seconds as I listed to God’s chuckles.

“Since when do you like to do anything like everyone else?”

God reminded me of my love of spontaneity, reminded me about how busy I had been in the summer even without the stress of looking for universities, and told me he wanted to test my faith. He explained everything. Finally, he gave me a song. My Future Decided by Hillsong United. He told me that I had been taken care of, assuring me of it with Jeremiah 29:11. “Stop stressing and start following!” God said to me “Start partying! Am I not God? You can do exactly what I put in front of you and love every second of it! Your future is decided, and this is for my glory. Don’t you know that you are mine? I take care of my own.”

God knew exactly what he was doing all along. Silly me, why didn’t I see it before? Okay God, my future’s always been up to you. Gap year or no gap year…it doesn’t matter. You can give me the answers about Universities today, tomorrow, or at the very last second. I accept that.

“Now be filled with joy.”

Peace be with you,
-naomii


The Dirt Under Your Fingernails

I see myself lying pathetically at the bottom of a dirt hill. I raise my head sleepily. My arms still half under my limp body, I begin to scratch at the dirt at the base of the hill. I scratch frantically, making myself look even more pathetic as the dirt gathers under my fingernails.

I have a problem.
I lie.
I lie to myself, my friends, my co-workers, my aunts, my parents, even my closest friends. Sometimes it’s just an exaggerated story, sometimes it’s a simple “I’m okay”, sometimes it is blatant and malicious. But it’s all the same because it’s all sin.

You know what the worst part is? It hurts me and I know it. . .but I keep doing it. I make everything bigger, badder, and harder . . .but I keep doing it. I have only recently decided to stop within this past week. It has taken me almost 18 years to stop doing something I knew was stupid from the beginning. How sad is that? But I am going to quit and I will overcome.

How often do we make something a bigger deal than it really is? How often do we let our bad attitudes shape our circumstances? Lie to ourselves and turn little dirt hills into impossible mountains?

“Dirt under your fingernails does not equal hard labor.”

Rise up! Isn’t walking through fire, letting life refine you, and doing impossibly hard things supposed to be the amazing, cool, inspiring and exciting things we all gape at? Books and movies are not made out of petty, whiny characters who refuse to get their lives together and conquer their problems, big or small.

And after all it’s just a pile of dirt.

Peace be with you,
-naomii


Pain

It really humbles you. Doesn’t it?
It reminds you how great you really are not. How badly you need help.
And how hopeless life can be.

Okay.

Now let in healing.

Joy


The New

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” – 2 Corinthians 5:17

Why should some Roman calendar dictate pivotal moments in our lives? Sure, we all need benchmarkers in our lives. We need notches in time to look back on and see where’ we’ve been, where we’ve come from, and what direction we were headed in at the time. But we cannot use our own willpower or any man made things to wash ourselves clean of our old selves. The creator, the artist of our universe, is the only one who can help us rub out and paint over old mistakes once and for all.

“Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning” Lamentations 3:23 (New Living Translation)

Peace be with you,
-naomii


Jeremiah 33:3

Jeremiah 33:3 (New International Version, ©2010)
‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’


Jeremiah 1:4-9

The Call of Jeremiah
4 The word of the LORD came to me, saying,

5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew[a] you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

6 “Alas, Sovereign LORD,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am too young.”

7 But the LORD said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am too young.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD.

9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “I have put my words in your mouth.

~ Nina Belle